It was 1998 and the Playstation was king; Resident Evil 2, Ocarina of Time, Spyro and Pokemon were the heavy hitters of that time.  I was eight years old and unaware at how awesome video games were.  But that year I got a Nintendo 64 and from that moment I was a gamer, it was amazing how fun a Zelda adventures was.  I had a lot to catch up with but I had a passion.  Right out of the gate I loved jumping and kicking as Mario, flying as Star Fox, or running and gunning as James Bond, however I was not a completions.  Being eight years old, difficult parts in games made me anxious; scared isn't the right word, but I tended to stick with more light hearted games.  I didn't like the water level in Mario because that sea snake made me so nervous.  Unfortunately these small anxieties stuck with me over the years to a point where Dead Space and Resident Evil are almost too scary for me.  It's gotten bad enough that I need to over come it because I'm missing out on some great games.  


While I loved gaming I never put stock in seeing the credits roll.  I had no problem stopping a game in a lull point and moving on to something more directed which could keep my very short attention span.  I loved just sinking hours into multiplayer games like GoldenEye or Smash Bros. Unlike having an anxiety from "scary" games sticking with me to this day, I  do put importance in beating the games that I start.  While my backlog is still huge, I like beating my games before moving on.  Caring about credits has almost stunted my multiplayer career in any game because I always feel it's time to move on.  While at the root I play games to have fun, at this moment in my life, I'm having fun when I'm beating games.  Grinding away at multiplayer just doesn't have the thrills it used to.  


In this current state of caring about finishing games, I'm realizing how many games I need to go back to.  Honestly I never fought the final Bowser, I haven't killed Ganon, I haven't finished a Final Fantasy and I've never played Metal Gear Solid.  My backlog is huge to say the least.  I look back at my Nintendo 64 days all the way through the early life of the 360.  So many Playstation 1, 2 and original Xbox titles that I need to beat.  So many old school games that I need to play to broaden my gaming knowledge.  While six months ago this list would be overwhelming to me, I'm actually looking forward to it. 

Oddly enough this holiday season is perfect for me because of this backlog more so than the great games coming out.  I'm looking forward to all of these HD remakes and boxed collections that are coming out more so than sniping more dudes in MW3 or finishing up Ezio's story in Revelations.  Now don't get me wrong, I'm probably more excited than you are for Skyrim and Arkham City, I can't wait to get my hands on Rage and see Nathan Drake's newest adventure.  These next few months have the potential to be the best ever.  But finally getting a chance to play through all the MGS games, or playing the Ico/ Shadow of the Colossus for the first time is so exciting.  Finally checking out Oblivion and finishing Ocarina (on my completely over priced 3DS) is going to be great.  I can't wait to finally play the classics.

Ask anyone and they'll give you fond memories of all of these games and I want to be a part of that crowd.  I want to be part of the Zelda and Princess Peach savior club.  I can't wait to take down the Colossus and find out the story of Solid Snake. This November is going to be a lot of fun, but I've made the choice to stop worrying about release dates and timelines and just finish the great games I'm playing.  I no longer want to leave a game mid-story (no matter how bad it is) and I'm going to get over myself and get the *** scared of me with some scary games.


P.S. That is not a picture of me at the top, he's just lucky enough to be number one on my google search for video games...