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I’m not usually the type of guy who likes to share personal details about himself with anyone, but I’ve already talked a little bit about my depression,
so I’m just going to say this and deal with the repercussions: I’m
bisexual. I’m attracted to both men and women. It scares the hell out of
me to finally admit that in a public forum because I’ve seen what
others have had to deal with. I’ve seen the hatred directed at
homosexuals and transgender people on the internet. I’ve heard people
tell my brother, a homosexual, that he’s “going to hell” or he’s
My brother and I were raised right smack dab in the middle of the
Bible Belt, and yet we somehow wound up avoiding some of the more
ignorant ideals that some of the people in our lives attempted to pound
into our heads. We were fortunate enough to always have my mother
around. My mom will tell you herself that she wasn’t the best parent in
history or anything, but she did try, and she always let my brother and
me make up our own minds about things. She always told us she would love
us no matter what and she still says so now. I believed her then and I
still believe her now.
I was raised a Christian and I’ll always remain one no matter
what for my own reasons. I believe in God. I’ve read the Bible,
including those verses about homosexuality that some of the more grating
members of the religious community like to tout. The Bible has been
twisted and turned by the modern church into something that it is quite
frankly not, which is one of the main reasons, along with judgmental
idiots, that I haven’t regularly attended a church in years. All the
ones I’ve attempted to attend have been borderline Westboro, so my
relationship with them didn’t last too long.
I suspect now I won’t be welcome in very many religious circles at
all, which is just fine by me because I don’t want to be around terrible
people. I was affected by their crumminess before, but now I’m
desensitized to it and don’t really care anymore. I’m happy to know that
their death rattle will soon be drowned out by the winds of change. And
I’m even happier knowing those winds are also sweeping over the thing I
love most: video games.
Now, I’ll be the first to admit that I love me some Call of Duty. I’m also a huge fan of plenty of other AAA titles, among them BioShock Infinite, Grand Theft Auto V, Halo 4 and Assassin’s Creed IV: Black Flag. Now that I’m in danger of being labeled a “dudebro”, I would also like to point out that one of my favorite games is Brothers: A Tale of Two Sons and I’ve also completed and love games such as Papers, Please, Analogue: A Hate Story, Depression Quest and Device 6, as well as many other “indie” games. I like to shake things up and I very much enjoy when new experiences are made available.
However, the gaming world just hasn’t gotten enough of those new
experiences. Developers still believe that having a female protagonist
in their games is a bad business decision because a bunch of losers get
on Reddit and say it is. Death rattle. A Twine game isn’t a game. Death
rattle. Social activism shouldn’t be in games. Death rattle.
I want more games that challenge the traditional idea of what a game
is. I want a first-person shooter featuring a chain-smoking grandmother.
I want a game that allows me to feel just a little bit of what it’s
like to be a single mother raising three children. I want a survival
horror game about an overweight bisexual male who’s constantly depressed
and struggling with his religion and afraid to admit he’s bisexual.
The main thing I want is change. I want to see it in games and in
humanity. Some people would seek to deny me and others that change. It
doesn’t matter. Their time is over. Death rattle upon death rattle
fading into nothingness. Let the winds of change sweep through and make