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I'm a student at some university you have never heard of, I'm originally from Haiti, I love to draw/paint (here is my DeviantART gallery click here), and I haven't been a gamer for long. The first game I ever really got into playing myself was Call of Duty: Modern warfare 2, a game which I can't really stand anymore. Overtime I have grown to like multiplayer large scale shooters with complex objective-based combat that focuses on teamwork and tactics, I also have an affinity for games with low bullet damage (I hate cheap easy kills) and accurate hipfire. Thanks to Mass Effect 2 I expanded the range of the games I play, things like Assassin's Creed, and Metal Gear Solid4. I have always loved deep complex unconventional stories in games, and so I naturally fell in love with the story of the Metal Gear story.
I plan on working in the video game industry to try to get my ideas made into games. I know game designers don't get to decide what game gets made, its the ones who pay for production who decide, but I suppose I could just keep pitching my ideas until someone on top thinks they have merit, or I could go indie after getting experience in this industry. The future scares me.
I like a variety of forms of entertainment, manga, anime, tv shows, video games but I hate most of all things in all these things because they usually have shallow plots, too many annoying cliches, and most are just so *** unoriginal. I'm picky with music as well, but I'm still not sure why I like what I like when it comes to music. My artistic tastes are hard to put into words as well, so examples of things I like would be better, here are my favorite works I found on DeviantART divided into collections folders, click me.
I enjoy thinking a lot, and thinking has led me to various conclusions about many things. Here are some examples of things I think about.
-knowledge is something that is impossible to truly have since its based on merely an assumption that the reality we experience is real, Its ridiculous to think were all in some kind of matrix or other false reality, but we can't disprove that possibility, so we can never really be sure that all the knowledge we accumulated over human history applies to reality... though the rules of reality are consistent, so there isn't any reason to doubt our reality.
-Good and evil are silly oversimplified moral concepts, ideally what is good should be based on what beneficial for the general welfare of society, and whats evil are things that are bad for society (for example, lying is "bad" or "evil" because if everyone lied then language would become obsolete). My problem with good and evil is that they become simplistic labels to throw on things or people instead of really analyzing things. Good and evil don't exist outside of human society, whats good or evil isn't some objective fact, but rather its all in our minds, human-made concepts to act as guidelines, and the fact that different societies have different morals proves this. The reason the way people treat the concept of good and evil pisses me off is because of all these *** movies, tv shows, games, etc that has it as their major theme, like the world is really that *** simple as "good guy" fights and defeats the "bad guy".
-The universe is deterministic, but choice/free will still exists. nothing is random, everything is an effect of some cause, and so are humans. We have no control over where were born, what morals we're thought, the socioeconomic conditions we are born into, but we have free will. Free will is pretty *** overrated though because we can't chose what we will, and our will determines our actions... you could argue that this definition of free will isn't really free will, but that's not the point. We are products of our circumstances, environments, genetics, and our will, none of these things we can control. Because of this I know if I was born with the genes of a mass murderer and had the exact same life as he had, then I would chose to commit mass murder as well, so I can't hate anyone because In their shoes I would do the same things (1 shoe being life experiences and the other being genetics). This sounds like a cheap way to get rid of personal responsibility, but I think focus should be less on revenge/punishment and more on rehabilitation and making sure people grow up in the right kinds of experiences and have the right kinds of life experiences.
-More determinism. If you knew everything that has ever was, ever happened down to a subatomic level since the beginning of time, and knew all the laws of physics, then you could predict the the future, everything is just like gears moving each other.
-Even more determinism, everything that ever happened might have happened before a infinite amount of times, and all of history will repeat again an infinite amount of time exactly as it happened before. Why do I believe such a ridiculous and depressing notion? well I don't exactly believe it, but its a genuine possibility to me. If the universe dies from contraction (gravity pulls everything together into one spot and causes another big bang) then everything would unfold again exactly the same way because there is no new matter or energy to make things happen any differently, its the exact same stuff (same matter, energy, time, space) in the exact same point, and therefore it will explode out the exact same way, and the universe will expand and develop out in the exact same way. How could it happen any differently if the universe big bangs again. That probably won't happen, dark energy making space expand and all.
-Life and death. Life doesn't have some kind of grand purpose, nor does it need one, I don't get why people search for one. Death scares me, it would really be convenient for me to believe in an afterlife because of this, because the way I see it is that once you die you lose everything that made you yourself (memories, thoughts, emotions, relationships), sure you can say that the impact you had on the world and loved ones lasts and lives on after you die, but that eventually dies too because one day those you influenced will be dead, and those they influenced will die , and one day we'll go extinct, and the universe will eventually die anyway, and it won't matter that we even lived at all. Death is like saying "well you did all that for nothing", well you might be reading this and thinking "then STFU and just kill yourself already lulz", to that I say that as a living thing I have a natural will to survive, and to kill myself would betray that. In fact I want to be immortal.