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Veteran Member - Level 13
I think it's been over 3 months since I've posted a blog on here, well besides The 4th Floor posts of course, and during the past I guess year or so, not sure which I've had my fair share of ups and downs. My first actual blog post got herded by Saint in almost a year in that time, and I became a paid games writer. I'm dropping the journalist thing from that comment because quite frankly I'm neither qualified academically to be a journalist, nor do I have much in terms of contacts. The issue though is that in the past year or so I've lost a spark in my life. The passion for writing. Call it whatever you will: selfish, arrogance, or just low self esteem (spoiler alert: all three) but I really enjoyed the sense of interactivity with my audience. This has been severely lacking in both endeavors, the podcast as well as the games writing.
I miss the community most of all. When I began writing on GIO it was January of 2010, and at the time I was sans a PS3 or 360 or any current generation console. I don't even think I even owned a new computer game on my laptop at the time. In the past two years I have had bitter arguments and disagreements with people who I now call my friend, I have also made a really good friend in Gamebeast. I spent my free time on this site, I'd open a new tab for every blog written, read them and comment as necessary. I was active, I did what I could to remain active. Last year things changed, and my participation sank to an all time low.
It was during this time that I became disconnected, not only to GIO, but friends and family all became a blur of unwanted time. I isolated myself and I became an addict, I suppose I had always been one but I hadn't quite hit that ultimate low. As my life became disorganized, my rants on twitter became ever more confused and bitter, I pushed away with all my power because I hated myself. However things change, they always do and I find myself clean and sober for the first time in 11 years through the grace of my maker, and I desire that sense of community again. I crave that spark of inspiration, I crave self understanding, and I want to enjoy writing again.
Most importantly I want writing to be fun again. Which is why GIO I'm making a commitment in the month of August to a 31/31 blog. The best way to practice this art form is to do so every day. I've been working on a few ideas for blogs to tackle during this time, I may even do some reviews of the games I've been playing recently. Maybe a movie review here and there. I'm not too sure. Everytime I feel like I've written on every possible subject I come up with another. So GIO I suppose this is what I'd like to call the state of affairs. I'm committing myself to become a more active community. I'm sober, and I love it. But most importantly I'd like to thank you all for the words of kindness over these past two years, and also for reading what I put out here. I honestly can't believe that you guys still do, but it feels good to know you've got people reading.
For Now I'm going to steal someone else's ending.
Welcome back to GI friend.
I know what you mean when you say you lose that spark man. its rough, but from experience, all the advice I can give you is pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and go out there and kick some (proverbial) ass!
Nice to see you posting TOGNick. You are definitely a cherished member up here bud. I see this 30/30 thing is turning into a rite of passage.
A paid games writer. Interesting way to put that.
I have been writing for 13 years, and an urge to do so is necessary. I write for a small local newspaper, and was at my wits end. Writing about things you don't have an interest in can be difficult, so GIO has been my saving grace. Its a place to get my thoughts out tere, and most importantly, get that much needed feedback. I truly believe that this place can help in your situation.
Good luck with your 30/30. I believe DJH is doing one in August as well, so you'll have some company.
Glad to hear you're coming back in full force and getting your life back together. Also, good luck on the 31/31, it's a great experience.
Welcome back, Nick.
I haven't been on this site for long, but I plan on staying here.. well, as long as I possibly can. If that means 5 years, or 10, I'd really like to never leave. I think it's been 9 or ten months since I joined, and started really interacting with the community here. Over that time I've met some really awesome people. From playing and talking with them on XBL, Steam, and PSN, and if you ask me, this is the best community around. I hope I don't ever fall into any kind of period of inactivity. Anyways, good to have you back.
I'm also looking forward to your 31/31. Can't wait to read it in August.
Welcome back to Game Informer. Good luck on that 31/31!
I was worried about you, man! It's great to hear you are coming back!
Good luck Nick. It really is a fun endeavor. It can be hard, but it is a lot of fun. I'm sure I'll be reading.
I'm really looking forward to reading what you put out there!
Well good luck. Looks like I'm not alone when I start mine in August. Well at least I'll be able to enjoy reading one, instead of just posting mine.
Woohoo! You're back! I always enjoyed reading your blogs, they were some of my favorite out of all the community. Good luck on 31/31!
Oh, and I couldn't help but think of this picture when I saw your selfshot:
We all lose that spark; sometimes, you have to step away find yourself; hit it hard when you return.
I'm a little late to the dance but just wanted to say...you and I both know our history here at GI and I'm glad to see you're doing well and potentially returning in full force. I hope nothing but the best for you and let me know if there is ever anything I can do to help...blogging or otherwise. Cheers.