I'm going to be doing something a little different today I guess. I'm going to talk a little bit about failure. Or at least try to, I may or may not succeeded... I didn't realize how ironic that was until I typed it out. Screw it; I'm keeping it in there. 


So every time I get a break from school (Thanksgiving, Christmas, etc.) I try to set myself to some kind of goal. In the past, I've been able to accomplish a lot when I set my mind to it. I've also been able to do this in gaming. I'd say to myself "I'm going to beat this game before school starts back up," and I'd do it.

Now however, whenever I set myself to play a certain game in hopes of beating it and making progress in it, the exact opposite happens. I end up playing 3 or 4 completely DIFFERENT games that I had no original intention of playing.

This Christmas for example, I told myself "Alright, I'm going to beat The Legend of Zelda Skyward Sword before the end of the year." Two weeks pass and I've played quite a bit of BioShock 1, a little bit of Persona 3 (the other game I wanted to play over the break), Almost an entire game of Civilization V (normal settings), and over 26 hours into FTL: Faster than Light.

In addition to all that, I watched the entirety of Attack on Titan, and started Trigun (don't try to understand how I pick the order of Anime's I watch, I don't either.)

All told, I haven't even transferred the save data of Skyward Sword over to my Wii U (which I should probably do before I sell my Wii). *sigh*

A long journey starts with a single step, I've stumbled a bit and in my attempt to regain ground, I've gone backward. I need to step up. I need to get moving. I need to stop trying to back down. If I've lost the ability to keep myself rigid in my discipline for a hobby, then I've started another journey into a place that definitely isn't going to end well. My life is already crumbling a little; I can't let myself fall through the cracks. This has to stop before it gets any worse. I need to get started in the right direction, and I know just where to start.