If only writing were as easy as this.

Well met, BlackHeartedWolf, well met.  I usually don't do these blogging things, but I think that, as a writer since the precocious age of 12, I would love to see where this shenanigan goes.  So apparently, this is not only an introduction, it's also like a "writer's physical" of sorts-assessing the situation from the first person point of view.

And since all of you know that I love to talk about myself (KIDDING! KIDDING!) I guess I'll be doing my best to answer the questions (and save the day!-well....answer the questions, at least).  Anyway, without further ado (and I'm good at ado-ing), here is my stance on me, the writer.

This is exactly what I was doing only a couple weeks after birth...well...not exactly.

I started writing at a relatively young age.  I still have a small book that I wrote from the second grade where I wrote about going to the zoo and seeing various animals only I created a surprise ending-the last animal I went to see was actually A GHOST! BOO!  It may not seem like it from an adult perspective, but my story was all the rage in my class.  When I was in fifth grade, I wrote stories on the old Windows 95 machine in our class, including one about a plate of lasagna that came alive and tried to eat the main character of the story.  Of course, by junior high and high school, I was writing 10-20 page stories, and excelling in pretty much every written assignment I received.  I was also simultaneously writing in a personal journal, having filled at least 12 different books with writing of a personal nature to date. 

When I went to college, I honed my critical writing abilities and got pretty burned out with writing in general (I graduated in Modern Literature with a minor in Education), so once I finished my exit paper (A 20 page critical essay comparing a Japanese horror film with Freudian dream analysis), I took a nice, long break from writing "for me."  However, I did increase my web writing prescence, mostly by debating various controversial topics on Gaia Online. 

As an adult, especially with a full time job, I didn't get a lot of time to write for myself, once again, life just got in the way, and since I couldn't find a job that involved writing on my own terms, I generally didn't get into much blogging at all, largely due to the fact that I kept feeling like everything had been said.  But then I met Game Informer Online....and something changed.  Suddenly, I had an opinion that I wanted to get out there.  And I felt like I was the best person to say it.  Of course, after a prolific writing spree, I hurt my right hand/wrist and have been dealing with added stress at work and at home (my daughter is 2 and a half, and needs quite a lot of "mom time" when I get home and that takes precedence over teh internetz), but I love to write, and for me, writing has always been a very deeply personal experience that I immensely enjoy, as long as it's on my own terms.

QUESTION 1: Where you think you are right now, and where you hope to end up with writing.  

Right now, I feel like I'm on good terms with my writing.  There are obviously certain things that I can improve upon (largely this would have to do with someone else proof-reading and giving me feedback so that I can revise-but such things would generally only be in the case of professional/paid writing and only once it passes my review and OK.  I would really like to write more fiction and possibly even compile a book of short stories, but once again, this is my pipe dream talking.

Do you aspire to be a full on gaming journalist?  

I normally would just answer this with a simple "No," but I guess that I have to clarify.  I don't really feel like most "game journalism" is actually true journalism these days.  Most of the articles I read are basically people just regurgitating press releases about games and maybe throwing in an opinion or two.  There is a big difference between parroting back already known news and actually going out there and STAKING A CLAIM to your opinion.  For example, Ben "Yahtzee" Croshaw is an example of Gaming Journalism.  Reading some press release typed up on Game Spot is Gaming NEWS.  Gaming Journalism sound quite fun, but I'm not sure I'm quite snarky and outraged enough to truly do it justice.  In theory, it would be awesome. In practice, I might just end up making myself look incredibly silly.  It doesn't help that my favorite games tend to be absolutely ADORABLE OVER THE MOON CUTE and would probably make the average (male) gamer feel like his manhood was retracting back into his abdominal cavity from the sheer DAWWWWWWW of it all.

Are you happy being an amateur blogger?  

I don't know if I am happy being considered an "amateur", but I am happy being free to choose the topics that make me feel passionate about what I am writing, and I am incredibly happy that I have the opportunity to blog in such a supportive community. :)

Tell me what you really want to do with your writing.

I would eventually love to publish some of my writing, and possibly write professionally but ONLY if I can have creative control of my topics of choice (which is more of a pipe dream than anything I seriously count on).  I am considering either self-publishing or professionally publishing a poem that I've been working on since I was in the 7th grade. I also want to paint pictures to accompany the poem and make it available to children and adults alike (It is a whimsical poem that reminds me of equal parts Lewis Carroll and Dr. Seuss but all original ME).

What typically gives you problems in writing.

The biggest problem about writing is figuring out what I want to write and getting the time to write it.  Generally, I get all the ideas when I don't have time to write it out, and when I do get large spaces of uninterrupted time (which are quite rare as a parent), I just want to sit there and go "DUHHHHHHHHHHHH," and watch some TV.  The second biggest problem is interruption.  Either someone wants to talk to me, or I have to go somewhere, or there's some PRESSING BIOLOGICAL NEED (like hunger or bathroom needs) that tears me away from my concentration on writing.  Have you ever tried to write something amazing while you're hopping up and down trying not to pee your pants?  Let's just say, I'm used to it by now, since Murphy's Law always dictates that when I'm in the middle of something I am enjoying, something's going to come in and ruin/sidetrack it.  A final thing-I'm hyper crazy sensitive about making mistakes and errors and often go back and re-edit my stuff over and over again changing tiny errors and typos and hoping that no one notices.

Well, there you have it.  A first blog that is "just the facts" with a little humor and some nice pictures as well.  I hope you enjoyed this little tour of my inner psyche, or at the very least, did not feel compelled to run screaming from the computer screen.

With that, I have a couple of questions of my own for my dear readers:

Are there any defining moments in your young life that center around writing?

What is your most favorite piece of writing?

Do you feel that you would rather play games or write about them?

And finally, do you have any more questions for or about me in regards to my long-winded autobiography?