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Stuck In The Past

Greetings to everybody here in GameInformer Online Community! First of all, I would like to begin by telling you how it all started for me, how I became a gamer. Back in 1994, our family first got a Dingo. This console, that was using yellow cartridges, was a NES-clone, originating from Russia. Anyway I really got into playing all those fun classic games like Battle City, Super Mario, Contra, TMNT  etc. And that was until 1998, when we got out first personal computer. Now this was a major breakthrough in my gaming history. Although the PC was like crap, I was still playing games like GTA1 and Age Of Empires 2 on it. And that was until I got a second, far better PC in 2003. That computer made me into a full-time gamer :P Around 2005, things started to look grim...

My family grew ill of financial problems and the situation hasn't become any better. From year to year, the way to actually manage became harder and harder. And now, the bad part of the situation is currently at it's peak. My mom has to feed alone 4 people and 2 pets. The pay she gets from her job is pretty good, but since the conditions are so horrible, it doesn't seem so big at all. Meanwhile, my step-father is in Russia(We live in Estonia) and is constructing a house there. No money has come to our doorstep for 2 months now. Now, you would think that even things are pretty bad, one, like me, should go to work somewhere. But this is where things get much worse.

I am a disabled person, been such for my whole life, since birth. I have a mediocre muscular and bone disability, resulting in bad physical condition, low strength, low endurance, low cardio and becoming fatigued really fast. Well this is my current condition. My childhood(which was going to doctors for like 17 years in a row) was much worse than my current situation. It even makes me wanna cry, if I remember what's happened in the past.(I am 20 years old and male) This disability removes my options to find a job, because there aren't any where I could last for a long time. Even just cleaning would probably be a suicide mission. So all I have left is my brain and my fingers. I am studying very hard in a vocational educational school in my hometown to become a Database and Software Specialist. I've even got an acknowledgment diploma. But now to the good part ---->

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  • Hmmmmmm.. a heart felt blog. The situation where i live at isn't any better. With 30,000 people losing jobs and no appications anywhere, my hopes for finding a part time are slim. I'm not disabled,I'm very healthy...but I have no work experience. I've tried to get into an institute to study...no good either. Most high tech gadgets like the PS3 and iphones are out of my reach as well. I'm still playing Gamecube and PS2 while most people are playing online. I can't even afford internet. Everything in my collection was hard earned.So don't feel bad if you can't afford the most up to date gadgets. Be grateful for what you have. A 4 year old notebook is better than nothing. I can't even buy that. So I have to use a friends laptop. But if you want to share your feelings about games,then you have come to the right place. GIO looks forward to sharing our feelings of games with you to. So participate whenever something catches your interest. P.S Nicely written first blog. Welcome to GIO and the blog section.^_^
  • I feel bad for you man, I really do. Welcome to GIO though, and this is a really good first blog.
  • Well it seems as though you have a decent outlook on your situation all things considered. I wish you and your family well. I am not sure about Estonia, but here in the States there are several jobs that can be done without physical exertion. A couple that come to mind include things like medical transcription, insurance billing/coding, etc. There are also several places that do customer service where it is moslty on the phone. To be honest if I knew you in person I would probably be willing to help you find work somewhere that would benefit both you and an employer. It's kind of funny though, I have such a small family and always wish I had more that I was close to. Other than my son there is nobody that lives close to us, so most Holidays(well every day really)it is just the two of us. We have just about every gaming system made in the past 12 years, but somehow that isn't what makes us happy. Enjoy the company of your mother and siblings while you can, it is better to see their face while reading a book then finding out what they are doing on Facebook.
  • Thank you for this blog mate, it provides perspective. I try hard not to take foregranted all I have...

  • EMotional is not in my vocabulary. No Emotions!!!!
  • i live in the heart of michigan. i feel your pain.